I am, whom I’m suppose to be in this moment.
When my mind is in fast forward, always attempting to be in the next moment I tend to forget my true purpose. To live.
My daughter said to me today “I can’t wait till it’s summer! How about you?” I replied “Yes, I can wait.” She gave me a look like I was crazy. So, I went on to say “If I wish today away, the faster summer would come and then go. Before you know it will be winter again” she seemed to get what I was saying. I wasn’t always like this, I was the kid that would wish/pray for the last day of school on the first.
Accepting who, what and where I am in the moment allows me to be present. If I’m present I can fully embrace the gift that life is.
Here is an excerpt from one of my favorite books:
“And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation—some fact of my life —unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concen- trate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.”
Acceptance Was the Answer chapter 16 of The Big Book